Red Lip Confessions

When I first realized that he(My Ex) wasn't coming back it was the hardest thing to get over because I was sleeping in the same bed with him for two years. I would  wake up in the middle of the night and hung my pillow because I missed him next to me. I would be good in public and at work but at night I would wake up, hold my pillows and cry. It was very hard for me I must admit and I put on this front like I was ok but that empty side of the bed was killing me. I have really vivid dreams and nightmares so when I would have those bad dreams I would wake up and snuggle next to him. I would feel so much better because I felt a since of protection. When I would have those bad dreams I would wake up and no one would be there and I didn't feel safe. I'm kinda of a scary cat..lol.. So I started to buy lots of pillows for the bed because it made me feel like I was protected..I psyched myself up!! It actually worked...but the moral of this story is that I realized that it is ok