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Be That Bitch!!!

When I was younger I had a much slender body type but I was always had a nice womanly shape. As I look back on my life when I really was conscience of my body I always thought I was big. Clearly I wasn't at all when I look at the pics. I always had an issue with my body whether it was my skin color or how big my calves were. There always was an issue that I had with myself. That trickled down in my dating life when I was younger because I would automatically think a guy wouldn't like me..because A. I'm not skinny..B. I'm dark skinned! Those where the factors that affected me really heavily. I know it was petty!!

I would ask guys that I have dated and were no longer dating questions. What about me you didn't like or What about me turned you off? The answered I received was that I had a lack of confidence about myself. That hurt because I knew it was true! I hated the way I looked because I wasn't the girl in the video or the girl all the guys were drooling over in the club. I know that was petty again but that's how I felt. When you look in the mirror and you don't like what you see or better yet love what you see you tend to feel like you don't deserve happiness or love.

I have recently grown out of that and I finally I am free from the negativity about myself. I have so much confidence in myself some people might say that I'm cocky! I am not I just appreciate myself more and I love my body. I love the fact that I'm chocolate and thick! Yeah my arms may flap when I or that I can actually feel myself jiggle when I I don't care anymore. To be honest I have gotten more attention then when I was a size 6. It wasn't about the size it was about the confidence and now that I beam confidence.. I can pull any guy I want..(little cocky there lol)! Put me next to skinny girl and I bet I'll sparkle more...

All I'm saying is LOVE YOU AND BE IN LOVE WITH YOU! People can't help to notice! Be That Bitch!!!


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