Red Lip Confessions

When I was younger I had a much slender body type but I was always had a nice womanly shape. As I look back on my life when I really was conscience of my body I always thought I was big. Clearly I wasn't at all when I look at the pics. I always had an issue with my body whether it was my skin color or how big my calves were. There always was an issue that I had with myself. That trickled down in my dating life when I was younger because I would automatically think a guy wouldn't like me..because A. I'm not skinny..B. I'm dark skinned! Those where the factors that affected me really heavily. I know it was petty!! I would ask guys that I have dated and were no longer dating questions. What about me you didn't like or What about me turned you off? The answered I received was that I had a lack of confidence about myself. That hurt because I knew it was true! I hated the way I looked because I wasn't the girl in the video or the girl all the guys were drooling ov...

When I first realized that he(My Ex) wasn't coming back it was the hardest thing to get over because I was sleeping in the same bed with him for two years. I would  wake up in the middle of the night and hung my pillow because I missed him next to me. I would be good in public and at work but at night I would wake up, hold my pillows and cry. It was very hard for me I must admit and I put on this front like I was ok but that empty side of the bed was killing me. I have really vivid dreams and nightmares so when I would have those bad dreams I would wake up and snuggle next to him. I would feel so much better because I felt a since of protection. When I would have those bad dreams I would wake up and no one would be there and I didn't feel safe. I'm kinda of a scary cat..lol.. So I started to buy lots of pillows for the bed because it made me feel like I was protected..I psyched myself up!! It actually worked...but the moral of this story is that I realized that it is ok...

After having a facebook outburst about black men saying that they only date white women I decided to talk about this epidemic! This really had me on fire yesterday because of the reasons they don't want to date us black women. I feel like black men want to be treated like kings when in reality some of them are jesters. I am not saying that all black men are like this just the ones I have encountered are whom I'm talking about.  I really don't care what your preference is or who you chose to date because you can't help what you are attracted to. What I am disagreeing with is your justification for not dating black women. This really makes me angry because they are so many beautiful and intelligent  black women that are seeking a healthy relationship. So I am going to give you the top three things that black man say that causes them to put on there snow boots lol.   1. Black Women Are Angry and Bitter! I definitely disagree with this! Not all black women are an...

This is post is about things I don't like when it comes to relationships, sex, and/or general things I have come across. Since everyone on youtube are making videos about it and I don't have a youtube channel that's has videos. I thought I would express myself here!! First thing I don't like is when you first meet a guy and you give him your number. He calls and you have a wonderful conversation and then he tells you that he wants to spend sometime with you. So you are like ok cool what do you want to do? Then he suggest well we can CHILL AT YOUR HOUSE!!! That boils my blood to the 1000th degree. That's that shit I don't like!!! Second thing I don't like is when black guys talk about the reason why they prefer a white woman over a black woman! They say that a black woman has a attitude! That is the dumbest shit I ever heard..excuse the Dutch...They say we nag and we fuss to much! I have come across white women who do the exact same thing. NIGGA...if you ...

I remember my first toy I purchased was when I was 20. It was right after Katrina and I had visited my best friend "T". She was in Austin, Tx and we were drinking and listening to music and she suggested that we go to the sex store. I had never been to one before and I was like I don't know about this "T". We went to Dreamers and it was this really big place they had a bunch of things to choose from. At the time I wanted something that looked like a real penis. I ran across this vibrator that was blue and that you can use it under water. I was like ok Imma get this. I tried it and I didn't like it. It wasn't until I bought a very expensive toy from Hustler's in the French Quarter. I payed 120 dollars for this toy! I was so excited to go home and try it. When I used it, it was so intense that I thought I had peed on myself..lol from then on  I was hooked on toys! I like to try different types of toys from bullets to lipsticks. I have about 5 to chos...

Let's face it ladies, we all have faked a couple of orgasms here and there. I know I have and it was because I didn't want to hurt the guy feelings or I wanted him to leave. I don't speak my mind during sex I just let him believe that it's great. The funny thing is that I would ask him what he wants. Weird right? Going thru the whole ordeal of faking requires some awesome acting skills as I would say so myself. The loud moan, the clutching of the sheets, and I even have the leg shake down path. LOL..  I was having a conversation with one of my guy friends one night and he was shocked when I told him that I had faked orgasms before. He asked me " Why didn't I just tell the guy he wasn't doing it right?" and I didn't have an answer. He made a very valid point! That's when I realized that by faking orgasm I make it worst for myself  the next time because he will continue to the same thing thinking that I liked it. I realized that faking orgasms ...

I thought the older I got I wouldn't have to deal with dishonesty. I thought that men my age or older would be the type that's not into lying and game playing. Boy was I wrong! I have been encountering some guys straight serving that fertilizer! I know that it's the guys that I am attracted too or that are attracted to me. I am not saying that all men that are around my age group are bullshitters. I thought that by a certain age the game playing would end. I am just so tired of going thru the same things I went thru in high school. It gets old after a while and it comes to a point where you know when someone is running game or if they are truly genuine.  I just hate a liar with a passion. I hate being lied to and it's the worst feeling in the world. My thing is why not be honest upfront and let me know what I am getting into. The most disrespectful thing is when you don't keep your word. Don't tell me you are gonna do something and then don't pull thru. It...